One month later… a less anxious mess

It’s been a little over a month since I admitted to the world [more like 100 people but give or take a couple] that I was an anxious mess. I expressed the fact that I was fed up and felt trapped on this roller coaster that wouldn’t let me off. Since then however, lemme tell you, things have been looking up. I love writing these types of posts because it feels like I’m catching up with an old friend. Here I am, pouring my heart out, telling ya’ll my deepest darkest secrets. But back to the point of this post

People always say ‘find a hobby’, ‘distract yourself’ and ‘occupy your time’ to distract from the overhead storm that is mental illness. This never worked for me however, until, spoiler alert, now. I’ve cracked the code. It just took several years of back and forth and hopelessness [welp]. Anyways, I’m ready to spill the tea and let ya’ll in on my secret. I can’t guarantee that this will work for you too, but maybe it will and then we can be not so anxious internet buddies.

So what did I do?

I started a business. Now this business was founded in January but it took a few weeks of trial and error, like any venture would, to get things sailing smoothly. Now that things are on track I AM LOVING THE ENTREPRENEUR LIFE. I feel as though I finally have a purpose, something to live for other than my houseplants who would die without me. Yay for purpose!

In addition to this business I also stopped giving a fuck. Now don’t get me wrong. I am still on top (kinda) of my school work and still doing the whole life thing BUT I have stopped letting the little things get to me? Things don’t work out the way I wanted them to? so what?! That’s the mentally I have embraced and it’s doing wonders for my mental health. We all know the book ‘The Subtle Art of Not Giving a Fuck’. Now although I never made it passed the second chapter (oops), I think that this is what the book may be alluding to. Not fretting over every little thing. Ride the wave of life. Go with the flow. All the clichés.

The final thing I started doing was doing things for fun. You know when you’re in the talking phase with someone and they ask what you do for fun and your mind blanks because all you do is nap, eat and go to school? Just me? Well that was the story of my life. I never had an interesting answer to that question. But now I do and I’m ready to take to the Tinder chats and tell all my matches about my new hobbies [just kidding, maybe]. Let me tell ya’ll instead. I took up jewelry making, inspired by Pinterest of course. And guess what? I am actually getting good at it [jewelry line pending?]. I’ve started going to the park weekly, just to sit under a tree, with a Starbucks in hand, and take some deep breaths in nature. That my friends, has been game changing. Why didn’t I do this sooner? I realized that if I’m living life, I really and truly want to be LIVING. So here I am, taking charge and living my best life.

Anyways, before I begin to bore you all, lemme wrap this post up. I don’t think I have any more tips but if you have any that you’d like to share with me, definitely comment them below!

Until next time,

Mikayla